Purple Butterfly

LEt me tell you why

Friday, April 07, 2006

It's been almost a month since I wrote something on my blog. Haven't had the energy to do blogging these days. I thought that working day shift would change a bit. I thought I'd be less tired, less grumpy and less stressed out. I was wrong. I still feel sleepy most of the time. The only difference between graveyard and day shift are the calls. I still get the same CSAT scores and my AHT have been improving. I get more calls from foreigners than Americans. Those callers can be a pain, it's difficult to understand them and even more difficult to explain technical terms about their travel. But thank God, at the end of the day, I don't have to think of a single caller I had for the day. That's one great thing about my job cause I don't have to be bothered by it by the end of the day. The pay is enough to support myself but not that much to help me support a family. I don't intend to establish a family soon though but if it happened that I have a family of my own, it would be very difficult. I won't get to do so many things and there'll be so many restrictions... SO, moving on, I'm not sure if I'm ready to let the whole world know that I am resigning. And I'm sure most of you will ask why. It's been a tug of war between staying and moving on. I've learned to love CEBU, I've met so many wonderful people and made so many real friends, I live in a comfortable room and I enjoy my time with my housemates, I love my new sched and I'm getting the hang of everything. WHy leave all these now? Now that I've fallen hopelessly in love with everything about my job, my place and the people.Let me say, that it's a matter of prioritizing things. My family needs me back HOME. I have a lola who's been suffering from bone cancer. My mom has been missing me and I wouldn't get to spend more time with my brothers when they will be establishing their own family, my father needs me in establishing some trainings in his school. I can't think of anything else. Sometimes, I get tired of living alone, of having to feed myself and no one to look forward to at the end of the day but a good book to read. I become lonely many times. But by living alone, I have learned to fend for myself, to become independent and to learn new things. Things I never would have learned if I was within the comforts of my home. I discovered so many things about myself, my strengths and my weaknesses. I will forever carry with me the things that I learned while I lived far from home. It's only a matter of time now. I don't have the exact time yet but it will come... I will be leaving, maybe sooner, maybe later....

Butterfly Tales
12:34 PM

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