Purple Butterfly

At the end of the day

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

At the end day, my most favorite part is before going to bed. I believe that most of us, or if not all have a ritual before going to bed. Whenever I feel the urge to sleep, I take out my lil lavender basket filled with bath essentials to wash my face and brush my teeth. I sometimes take a bath or a shower to cool down my aching body and afterwards, brush my hair, check my pillow if it's fluffy enough then I take a moment to relax and grab the small mirror beside my futton.

I love looking at my own reflection after washing my face, after I use the toner and after applying moisturizer, looking fresh, clean and relaxed. Then I take a moment to reflect on how the day started and ended, I then fold my hands and say my prayers. Praying for me is soothing, it is just like the before-going-to-bed ritual I do every night. Its purpose is to unload and reflect on all the negative and positive events during the day. A moment to contemplate, ask for forgiveness and strength for the next day. It is like washing my face, getting rid of all the dirt and oil that have accumulated during the day. No matter how much we avoid the dust and pollution, our body has its natural way of producing sebum that creates a shiny film on our faces. That's why most women use powder to conceal the oiliness on their faces. It is just like sin, no matter how much we try to be good, sin, doubt and confusion sets in. So we need to cleanse our hearts and offer God praises and thanksgiving. It feels very good to pray every night, just like how it feels good washing my face and brushing my teeth every night.

Butterfly Tales
1:24 PM

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thank you

"Miming "

This beautiful girl whom I love and miss much, my bestfriend Alma whom I fondly call miming. I haven't seen her for more than a year or maybe more than 2 years now. I wish somehow to thank her for the effort she did in creating a scrapbook for me on my birthday. All the creative juices she spent to make it a great one. It was really really sweet, nice and thoughtful of her. Only a true friend can find the patience and the creativity to pull all her resources to create a scrapbook. Well, I owe you a years worth of letters. I did promise you a long time ago and it's coming.. just wait for it... It'll come when you least expect it.

Butterfly Tales
11:58 AM

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My Butterfly

God knows that I care for Lindz much but we do not have control over the future. What we can do is hope for the best and trust God that He knows what life is ahead. It's not easy to see him fly... to see him go but if he must... then I'll open up my hands and watch him fly away... I have the perfect song...

Butterfly

Mariah Carey

ooh ooh When you love someone so deeply
They become your life
It's easy to succumb to overwhelming fears inside
Blindly I imagined I could
Keep you under glass
Now I understand to hold you
I must open up my hands and watch you rise

Chorus

Spread you wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly (Oooh)
Fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be, so spread your wings and fly

I have learned that beauty
Has to flourish in the light
Wild horses run unbridled
Or their spirit dies
You have given me the courage
To be all that I can
And I truly feel your heart will
Lead you back to me when you're
Ready to land
Chorus

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly (Oooh)
Fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me, we truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly (spread your wings and fly)
Butterfly (butterfly)

Bridge

I can't pretend these tears
Aren't overflowing steadily
I can't prevent this hurt from
Almost overtaking me
But I will stand and say goodbye (stand and say goodbye)
For you'll never be mine
Until you know the way it feels to fly
Chorus

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly (Oooh)
Fly abandonedly into the sun (fly to the sun)
If you should return to me (I will know you're mine)
We truly were meant to be (spread your wings and fly)
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly (my butterfly)

Chorus

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be (you and I)
So spread your wings and fly (spread your wings and fly)
Butterfly
So flutter through the sky
Butterfly
Fly
Spread your wings and fly
Butterfly.

Butterfly Tales
10:54 AM

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It's my pahty

Been very very tired lately. I took a week long vacation. Who wants to work on their birthday right? My church was holding a camp for 3 days so I decided to spend my birthday here in CEBU. My very first, I don't mean to sound sad or bitter but I couldn't find a reason to go home for my birthday. Sure enough I'll be spending my time with my family but my mom was in Davao to take care of my ailing lola, my kuya and my papa are super busy with their respective jobs and that leaves me with my younger bro Kaloi to spend my birthday with. I love festivities and I love celebrations, I love food, laughter and friends but I didn't had that luxury to celebrate my birthday that way. I woke up from sms from my friends and the worst part was for everytime someone calls me, I could only hear the person on the other line and they couldn't hear me. My beau lindz visited me early that morning to greet me a happy birthday and my friend Joy took me out for lunch. I came back with a package from my bestfriend Alma and opened it to find out that she have been very busy in the past weeks making me a scrapbook. The funny thing was, I intended to make her a scrapbook myself. It was really awesome and I got weepy-eyed thinking of her effort in creating one for me. Yes, I didn't get to spend my birthday in the most extravagant way but still I have so much to thank God for. I thank God first of all, for adding one more year in my life, to my family for their love even if I'm no longer with them, to all my friends who remembered my birthday and for everything...

The camp wasn't much of a vacation. I didn't go there for comfort or to merely have fun, I went there to spend time with God I definitely enjoyed my time with Him. It was physically tiring though cause I struggled to sleep inside a tent for 3 nights. It was a long travel gouing south of CEBU but the view was definitely worth it all. I got back to the boarding house to find Lindz waiting for me outside. I was glad to see him after a very tiring camp experience. Back to CEBU again, back to taking calls, back to my room, back to my beau if he decides to stay longer, back to life. I needed a break and thank God I got a break and spent it with people who love Him.

The initial interview yesterday for the sup role went fine. It wasn't nerve racking since it was only a one-on-one interview with HR mitz. She's a really nice person who has a sweet and soft-spoken voice. The results will come out next week and after passing the HR interview, I'll proceed to a panel interview composed of Team Managers across all accounts in the company. Am I intimidated at the thought of it? nah! I certainly am not. I'll be myself and answer them to the best of my ability and most of all, rely primarily on God's plan and purposed in my life. I really hope to get the role soon. I am in a way tired of taking calls for a year and almost 7 months now...

Butterfly Tales
10:28 AM

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FW: The BEACH

What do you know? I can actually update my bloggie. I blamed my long absence to IT who blocked blogspot. Thanks to an angel I call my BFF. HEHEHE Just came from a week long vacation. Same as last year, US is celebrating memorial day so there are a few calls. What a timing... I need all the time to blog away... Funny thing is, I ran out of things to blog now that I found a way to actually update my blogger. *tsk*

Butterfly Tales
9:14 AM

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test subject

i'm just glad that my bestfriend Rox is helping me out with this thingie where I can post my blog through email. Amazing right? We'll find out if this actually works...

Butterfly Tales
8:01 AM

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in love

Thursday, May 11, 2006

And yes, I fell in love... it's more of a choice than just falling... I won't get to update this page much... I am currently using myspace. http://blog.myspace.com/purplenadina just in case...

*sigh* love is in the air, a lot of adjustments and I just submitted my application for the sup role in the company. Our TM pie just had a meeting with all the vet reps on the floor. I really appreciate it when the top honchos of the company take time to listen to us agents. It never fails to make me feel that we are valued as agents. No matter how small and insignificant I feel sometimes taking calls everyday, it matters that our concerns matter to them. I didn't see my beau last night but I didn't want to pressure him into seeing me everyday or make it a requirement. I always want for him to show up at my BH because he desires to do so and not because I compelled him to do so. Let love compel him to see me everyday.

Well, I've been feverish the entire week and I guess I can blame it on the weather. Just a few days ago, it was effin hot and the next you know, rain pours out threatening to ruin a carefully planned team outing. But no matter, there are things beyong anyones control. Ey, there's always time to have a team outing. I am praying really hard to get the sup role within the next few months. I am stepping out in faith and steppin up to take the challenge. I've been in this kind of job for a year and six months. A year and six months and oh my times have changed so fast. There's yet so many things to happen ahead so I'll just buckle up and enjoy the ride... I just want to thank you Lord, for the love and for every opportunity to come my way...

Butterfly Tales
11:47 AM

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