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Have you ever found yourself lost? Wandering aimlessly not knowing where to go and who to turn to? Have you found yourself in a crossroad where you don't know which direction to go? I feel terribly lost. I don't seem to know my way. Maybe I don't need to know my way. Let me tell you a story..
Not long ago, I painted a picture of my future. This was before I graduated highscool and that was a good 6 years ago. Back then, my life was in synch. I was living the life I wanted to live, I considered myself lucky or what we Christians would term as blessed. I considered myself a good girl. I was an obedient daughter, an honor student and I had a bish (that was a term for me and my bf). With those in my life, I started to paint, first, I wanted to graduate with honors, finish a pre med course still with honors, finish a degree in medicine, and hopefully marry my bish have 2 kids, eldest would be a boy and followed by a girl and live a happy meaningful life on earth. It wasn't long then when all of a sudden, the future that I was trying to paint was slowly disappearing and before I knew it, my painting became blank. Suddenly I felt God's presence in my heart, impressing in me that I am not in control of my life. There are situations that no matter how I try to fix, plan or will, it is beyond me. None of my plans came to pass. Sure enough I graduated pre med, did not finish a degree in medicine and my bish and I parted ways. here I am, after six years I tried to paint that picture, got a job in customer support and have been living an independent life for almost 9 months now still single and available. Like a little child with curioustity, I started to ask God why none of my plans came to pass. To me, it was a good plan, it was a perfect plan. He brought me to His words in the Bible.
-Isaiah 55:9 - For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.-
- Proverbs 14:12 - There is a way that seems right to a man, but its end is the way of death.
God sees the bigger picture of my life. God created me
- Psalm 139:14 - I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works, And that my soul knows very well. -
and He knows every fiber of my being. In Matthew 10:30 explains that "But the very hairs of your head are all numbered."
and His words are more clear in
- Job 14:5 - Man's days are determined; you have decreed the number of his months and have set limits he cannot exceed. -
In short, I am not the real painter. The painter of my life is the very Creator Himself who did not withold His only son so I may be reunited with Him in heaven someday.
Yes, I feel lost, down and brokenhearted at times but I will continue to praise God for His goodness for He is perfect.
- Deuteronomy 32:4 - He is the Rock, His work is perfect; For all His ways are justice, A God of truth and without injustice; Righteous and upright is He. -
He is with me when I am down, when I feel oppressed and when I feel that no one seems to care.
- Psalm 147:3 - He heals the brokenhearted And binds up their wounds. -
In one way or another, people around us will fail us cause they are limited in their own ability. We cannot control the circumstances around us, we cannot control people's thoughts or reactions. We have no control over everything else around us but we do have one thing we have control of and that is our emotions. We can control how we think or act over a certain situation and our reaction towards a certain situation is determined on how strong and how founded we are to the truth which is the Word of God. That instead of looking around for answers, we are to look not to ourselves cause even our very selves can deceive us but to look on to God and His promises in His word.
- Philippians 4:8 - Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy--meditate on these things. -