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weeks have passed since I blogged. Our company has blocked such. We are no longer allowed to blog but in a way, they have every right to do so. We are getting paid to work and not to blog. Anything pertaining to personal matters should be done outside the workplace. Not only have they blocked blogging but even checking of personal emails. There are only 2 computers in the whole company that allows employees to check their personal mails. What's even good about it is that it allows us to chat through MSN msngr.. what's my point of all this? I guess my long absence may lead to questions. Aside from the fact that it's quite hectic at work, there have been certain restrictions..

but my point is not to complain about those restrictions. I have embraced it and have accepted that fact.

I wanted to talk about the heart, not the human heart but that term we call where our emotions are set. And the strongest of all emotions is that we call love...

Love enables.. I can talk so much about what love is but we all have experienced it in one way or another. There is no definite description of love except that of our views and how we have experienced love. what prompted me to talk about such a topic? To be honest, my heart. As the Bible would describe it in Jeremiah 17:9 - The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it?

Have you ever heard of an advice that says, "follow your heart...?" does the heart really know the answers or must we even follow it? My answer to that is a clear NO. Our heart as I have described earlier is a seat of our emotions. Our emotions are never reliable, they fluctuate, they change. One can be angry this moment and any minute it can change. Our emotions are affected by our outside circumstances. Even the love we have for one person.

Bottom line is, I know I can never find a love as real and as powerful as God's love for me is. Everyday, my heart gets broken and it breaks even more by just one person I may have placed on a pedestal. I say ENOUGH. ENOUGH for now. Like what he said. "Only time can heal" but what I love is what the Bible says about God's timetable...

Ecclesiastes 3:11 - He hath made every thing beautiful in his time: also he hath set the world in their heart, so that no man can find out the work that God maketh from the beginning to the end.

I know I did the right thing and that is what is more important, doing the right thing. I will wait upon the LORD and rest on His promises for me even when I do not see the way...