After 4 months since I last came home for my bday, finally decided to visit my hometown. I missed it, I missed my room, my own space. I love being home and in the comforts of having family. Sometimes I am not used to my mom telling me what to do. Especially now that her concern is that I have constipation for more than a month now. I just stayed for the last 4 days and never attempted to let my friends know except for atsi sigoe though. I couldn't wait to get some scoop about school and all about CDO. I caught a glimpse of Ed, my ex with a new girl. taller this time and as sigoe would put, pretty-but-not-smart. I don't know if it's true or a bias judgment but for sure I was caught off guard with what I saw. My poor heart was fine or has accepted the fact that he has another girl but a new one? Didn't know how to take it in. I guess it was just a shock for me, nothing hurtful. I just have to get used to the fact that it's over between him and that other girl. One thing I learned is that life continues to go on. For me and for everyone else. Anyways, it surprised me that what I saw didn't uncover hurtful feelings from the past. I've often wondered why at that precise time, I saw them, on my last day at home. I found the answer eventually, it's just obvious that things are not the same. I am fine, moved on pretty well and managed to be away from home for almost a year now.

I miss both of my bestest friends. They are like sisters to me by heart. We're all different in many ways but i love them both so much. My bestfriend al i fondly call miming is in Manila and I believe it's been more than a year since we last saw each other, since that time she relocated. As for my BF Rox, she's in CEBU alright and there's only one thing I can say 'you're near yet so far...' hahahaha Hope you guys know that in many ways, when I needed an anchor, a comfort, a hug, a cheer, a smile and a surprise you were there and I can't thank you enough for keeping a place in your heart for someone like me. drama na toh. maybe because I know that my period is coming or let me be just grateful to the beautiful people who are in their ways like angels sent from heaven.

So, I don't want to blog so much about missing home cause it's obvious that it's never easy leaving home, it is like leaving a part of you behind. Like I said earlier, life moves on. I like what bf rox posted in one of her blogs lately and let me borrow them: When things are messed up and you are not at fault, let go and move on; When things are messed up and you are in part to blame, mourn for a bit then let go and move on; When things are messed up and you are mostly to blame; wail and cry, then take responsibility, let go then move on. Bottom line is, to let go and move on. There's no point wasting time and emotions over something that belongs to the past. No matter how hurtful, still, letting go and moving is still the best move.