It's true that life is so full of surprises. In a matter days, I will be saying good bye to my sched, to my teammates and to my sup. I will be welcoming a new sched, I start at 10PM and end by 9AM, I work 4 days a week and rest days on SUN, MON and TUE. It's my first time to work on an 11X4 shift and they have not announced my new sup yet. I'm not even sure who my new teammates are but in a week or so. I pray for the strength to go on with this job. A year of working graveyard is really a torture. A lot of us are working this late for the money and some of us for the lack of opportunity. I am working graveyard cause I had no choice. The priority number I had for my new sched did not allow me to select for the sched that I find convenient for me. I know that all things work together for good and I continue to hold on to that hope that everything will work out fine. I cannot neglect the fact that physically I am tired, I desire to have a normal life soon and I know it won't happen unless I decide to quit my job, find a new one or wait for the next schedule which will happen 3-4 months from now. I know that there are still a lot of opportunities for me out there. For now, I will just suck it in. Be patient and wait for good things to happen. I am not sad nor depressed, just tired.

My mom called me yesterday and we were talking. I told her how I happy I am being single, and my friend is right that being alone does not mean that you are lonely. There are times that I feel lonely but the feeling just passes. Again, I'd rather suffer the pain of momentary loneliness than the pain of a lifetime regret. She had told me that if situations get better for my family, she'd allow me to travel first rather than settle down. I honestly cannot think of settling down at this time cause in the first place I don't have anyone that I'd want to settle down with. True that every now and then I get a crush on someone and then the feeling is so fleeting. Not that I'd rather settle down than travel, I dreamt to travel around places and I just don't want to travel alone. I want to explore places and culture but I would not want to do those things alone. I hope that someday I'll share that same dream with someone who's worth waiting for. I am determined to wait and not lose my chances. In the meantime, I'll have to build a career for myself and enjoy being single. Who knows? I may not be single forever.