The other day I fended off a guy whom I believed is taking the time to know me. He offered to become my bestfriend. Okay, fact is, I can never be bestfriend with a guy whom I don't have emotional attachment with. I sort of was a bestfriend to all 3 bfs I've had. So, it's kinda traumatic. I know he was just being nice. I was brutally honest in telling him that I don't want to go through the emotional drama of being involved. I'm no player either, I haven't use the power to flirt. Not that flirting is bad, it's innate in every woman. I just don't want keep his hopes high so I cut it even before any root can take place.

Talking about root, I feel myself being tossed back and forth. My roots are shallow. My heart is set on establishing myself, a career, goal, a plan, a future and a family. To take root and bear fruit. I feel like being on a crossroad. While my family hopes for my return, I find my heart wandering far. Go to places, visit countries, learn a new language and meet people from different cultures. I have the promise of youth. The reason why I am unattached its because there are so many things that I can still do while I am still single. I do dream of a partner someday but I am taking my sweet time. Who knows I will only be single once. And when the right time comes, I will cherish each moment I have with my future family. I know it's like a dark forest out there, full of traps yet it is also full of myteries. I dream to discover, to achieve, to overcome and to challenge myself. I have faith that we are capable of great things. It starts with giving, our time, and our best efforts. For now, I think I will just take my sweet time to discover. Going home is a possibility, staying is a possibility and moving on is another possibility. I hope that whatever path I take, I will look back and not regret what I chose.