I actually find myself singing that song. Oh poor heart! I've kept it from breaking or kept it from the L word. How can I not say that I am slowly falling in love and falling apart at the same time cause I never expected this to happen. Oh well! What can I do but embrace reality with all its joy and fears.

My mom called me today to tell me that my ex is being terminated from his current job and was asked to tender his resignation before his termination date to save his *ss. But what can I say? I just shrugged my shoulders and realized that I should be grateful for the break up.

About this new guy? It's been difficult for me cause I don't want to be emotionally involved with someone right now. So, why am I having such a difficult time? My life as a single was fine. Until he came. I find myself wanting to spend my free time with him and tears me up inside whenever I have to go back to my own space. It feels colder, then again, maybe this is just a fascination and will eventually die out... hopefully soon.