For the longest time now, I clearly haven’t taken the time to write anything on my blog. I didn’t even take the time to write about when I finally got promoted to Sup-trainee or when things were finally looking bright for my beau and me. I’d say I’ve been busy trying to make it out on my own. But this is one major event in brother’s life that I don’t want to fail writing about cause it also means my life will change from then on.
I called my mom one day to ask about going on a mission trip to Korea and Japan this September, I wanted more out of life so I thought that it would have been a perfect opportunity for me to expand my horizons. It was on that day that she broke the news to me that my brother was getting married to her longtime girlfriend Anj. I had no comment at first for I thought she was just pulling my leg. She sounded really calm and cool about it so I thought that my brother was “only” planning to get married and that maybe he will soon get married maybe next year. She was silent for a few seconds when I realized that my mom was in fact dead serious about the topic. So I asked when the wedding date will be. She replied that it’ll be on my birthday, and then she laughed. It became all the more a joke to me. Knowing my mom, I know she’s not the type who jokes about these matters so I was hoping that she was just in a way joking as her indirect way of saying that she won’t allow me to go on the mission trip to Japan or Korea. I asked her finally if what she was saying was true and she said it was all true. I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. It meant that my brother is moving out of the house. Since then, it’s been a roller coaster ride. I was shocked! It’s not that I was not aware that my brother had a girlfriend for six years I think or that maybe my brother is not the marrying kind, I was shocked because I didn’t expect it would be sooner than expected. I was expecting that my brother will eventually marry Anj someday since they’ve been together through thick and thin but I just didn’t expect it soon. I was numb, I couldn’t be happy, being sad is lame, close to scared, excited maybe? All I know is that the fact that my brother is getting married meant that I need to make a decision, a resolution for myself. I’ve been away from home for almost 2 years and a half. I didn’t even think that I would last this long considering the fact that I’ve been whining and complaining how life has been difficult living away from my comfort zone. My parents have been urging me to come home. The last time I finally decided to say goodbye to Cebu was when I got fed up with being taking calls that I lost the drive to stay longer but when the opportunity came, when the company promoted me to be a supervisor-trainee, I grab hold of it and planned to stay one more year or longer. It was a glorious day for me and it also meant that I’ll be staying with my beau around. I’m on my 6 month as a trainee and I only need just 30 more days, 30 more days to finally be regularized but I’m giving it up. I already celebrated 1 year with my beau. I worked my a*# off for what I have now and I decided that instead of being regularized as a supervisor, I am leaving the company in 30 days. It is by far one of the heaviest and most difficult decisions I have made in my entire and at 23, I feel I’ve accomplished what I thought I couldn’t. A lot of people, including my beau would tell me that my decision is not making sense. They say that why would I give up something I worked really hard for. I love my brother, no question about that and I love my parents and that is why it led me to this decision that whatever I have here, I was willing to give it all up for my family. My younger brother is in Manila as a scholar in an Animation school, so I can’t expect him to fill in the shoes of my kuya in the house. Somebody has to look after my parents or the needs of the house. The baton is passed down to me. I have loved and enjoyed my life as an independent career woman but I am giving up what others have long fought for so I can fulfill my role as a daughter and as a sister to my family. I am still groping in the dark and I’ve lost a lost of tears and sleep in the process. It tears me apart that I am leaving, leaving my team, my beau and my friends but I know deep in my heart that I cannot abandon my family at this time when they need me.
I love my brother, but I am sad that I never got to know Anj personally. We never bonded and now she’ll be my sister-in-law. I’ve got no problems with her or dislike her but I just never got the chance to be close with my soon to be sister-in-law. It means that she’ll be part of my family, a part of me. I want to welcome Anj in the family when I get back. I’ll prolly take the time out to invite her over for a movie or a simple lunch at home. She’s going to be a mom to my nephew or neice this coming September. I am excited about having a baby in the family. A baby Fortich. Hehehe I hope my house in CDO will not become empty but will someday be filled with happy families.
This is it for now, will update this blog soon.
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Nadina Mae C. Fortich
Operations | Supervisor – Trainee | PeopleSupport (Phils.), Inc.
2/F Skyrise IT Bldg. AsiaTown IT Park, Apas, Lahug, Cebu City
Mobile: 0928.391.5447 | Office: +63 (32) 234.8200 Ext.: 26378
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I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
Philippians 4:13