Purple Butterfly

My place called home

Monday, September 10, 2007

My bestfriend Alma sent me a very honest message, one that made me realize that I have been so out of touch with those who are closest to me. It was really hard to admit that my world revolved around work and my beau? or maybe ex-beau... I had a close friend come up to me one time and said that he hasn't seen me hanging out with my group of friends he labeled as Nerds. I realized those who truly cared for me when I was admitted at the hospital. The doctor diagnosed me with a bleeding disorder with no known cause or treatment. It's a rare case. I started to spit large amounts of blood that was first suspected coming from my ruptured tonsils. The amount was so large that the source could be coming somewhere other than the tonsils. After several tests, they found out that my vital organs are all intact, it's not ulcer, tb or anything with the liver. I cannot thank God enough that my health is not in its worse condition yet. My mom came to see me on the day I was discharged at the hospital and since my place is not a conducive place for rest, she can't even cook good food for me and there wasn't enough space for the both of us to sleep on we decided to sail for Cagayan de Oro on that same night. The doctor did not have to issue any medication but I will be under observation. There were really times that I felt a salty taste on my mouth, a signal that I would be spitting blood anytime and it was when I would pray the hardest. For one, when I was at the hospital, I was mostly alone and it was a scary experience seeing all those blood come out from my mouth and no one helping me out. I didn't want to go through it alone. I know for a fact that my health deteriorated because I have been feeling lonely, I have been feeling all the pressure at work, my finances are not in good shape and I have been having problems with my beau. All these were enough to send me straight to the hospital. Being the great parents that they are, they didn't care about the cost, they just wanted me to be home with them so I can recuperate well. So here I am at home, surfing the web, eating all the good food and enjoying the company of the people who love me no matter what. I needed this break and to realize a lot of things in my life. I went to see another doctor today and he said that just by basing on the tests conducted, I have nothing to be worried about but to take ample amounts of rest, good food and a lot of tender loving care. That's exactly what I am getting since I came home. It's been great being home. I can't think of any best place in the world but home. I wish to thank the nerds for being with me the entire time, Krishna for staying overnight and for helping when I was discharged, Nikki for the food and Debbie for taking the time to visit me. You girls are lovely and having you all makes life easier. I had a really pretty nurse who accompanied me during lab tests, she was so patient, pleasant and a very sweet girl, she was one of the interns of Cebu Doc. I never had the chance to thank her, thank you Diane King. And to everyone else who paid me a visit, for taking time out of their busy schedule to drop by, to my cousin Pangkoy for staying overnight and everyone else who prayed for me and silently supported me the entire time. And of course to my family, my mom and papa especially. For loving despite of many things. I'll never forget this experience ever. I thank God for keeping me and for just allowing me to rest through this. I owe you my life Lord.

Cebu Doc Rm 523 with the Nerds

Butterfly Tales
1:20 PM

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