Purple Butterfly

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Saturday, May 31, 2008

Falling in love is one of the BEST feelings I ever encountered in my entire life so it matters not to me if I have been crushed and burned as a result of falling in and out of love. I have learned through all my experiences with love and loving that it requires a tough person to stay in love and a brave one to explore its depth and intensity. But let me tell you that more than staying with the one person you love the most, it is more important for me to seek out the BEST for the person you love. TO be honest, NO matter if my friends or my family DID not accept my ex-beau, I still loved him the best way I know I can. That instead of forcing the issue between us, I rather opened my hands freely for him to freely explore his own life and what he can do with it. I still love him the best way I know I can and I MISS HIM. I sometimes wish that I am still walking beside him hand in hand as he carries my bag and as we talk endlessly about our day and how we used to have petty fights and my being a jealous and maybe not so possessive girlfriend but I have learned to respect his time and his space to explore. I am playing my cards right and I am not trying to win him back, only time can tell if we are really DESTINED for each other and if we are, I will no LONGER question his love and devotion for me. For now, I will let him be as I allow myself to explore too. There are still so many people that I want to meet and place to see and visit so I am not in a hurry and if in time he is not the ONE person for me, I am sure as the sun goes up everyday that there is someone out there for me.

Butterfly Tales
1:26 AM

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the birthday girl - silver year!

Friday, May 30, 2008

Butterfly Tales
4:42 AM

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The Nerds

Thursday, May 29, 2008

The Nerds then...

The Nerds now...

Butterfly Tales
3:19 AM

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Blouse of Many Flowers

My own version of Dolly Parton's Coat of Many Colors

Blouse of Many Colors

All through the years
As I wondered once again
On to this season of my youth
I received a bag of presents that my soldier gave me
And how my soldier gave the gifts to me
There were gifts of many choices
As each piece was unique
And I didn't have a clue
And it was during my natal day
My soldier sewed a blouse for me
Sewin' every piece with love
He made my blouse of many flowers
That I was so proud of
As he sewed, I recall a story
From the Bible, I had read
About a coat of many colors
Joseph wore and then I said
Perhaps this blouse will bring me
Blessings and happiness
And I just couldn't wait to wear it
And it was blessed with a kiss

Chorus:

My blouse of many flowers
That my soldier made for me
Made only from his hands
And I wore it so proudly
Although we had no money
I was rich as I could be
In my blouse of many flowers
My soldier made for me

So with stitches on each pieces
So I wore it with my shoes
In my blouse of many flowers
I hurried off to work

And I found the others smiling
And loved it like I did
In my blouse of many flowers

My soldier made for me

Oh I really understood it
And felt that I was rich
So I told them of the love
My soldier sewed in every stitch
And I told em the entire story
I recalled while he sewed
And how my blouse of many flowers
Was worth more than all their clothes

Oh and they did understand it
And I tried to make them see
That one is only poor
Only if they choose to be
Thought I know we had no money
But I was rich as I could be
In my blouse of many flowers
My soldier made for me
Made just for me

Original Version of Dolly Parton's Coat of Many Colors

Coat of Many Colors

Dolly Parton

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     Back through the years I go wondering once again

                                G7
     Back to the seasons of my/ youth

           D
     I re/call a box of rags that someone gave us

                                        G7
     And how my mamma put these rags to/ use

                D
     There were/ rags of many colours,and every piece was small

                                         A
     And I didn't have a coat and it was/ way down in the fall

             D                                G7
     Mamma/ sewed the rags together,sewing/ ever piece with love

                   D                          A
     She made my/ coat of many colours,that/ I was so proud of

      D
     As she sewed she told the story from the bible she had read

                                           A
     About a coat of many colours Joseph/ wore and they she said

           D                                   G7
     Per/haps this coat will bring you ,much/ love and happiness

                       D
     And I just could/n't wait to wear it

                 A                    D
     And mamma/ blessed it with a kiss

          G7                         D
     My. coat of many colours that/ mamma made for me

      G7                   D                 A
     Made only rags,but I/ wore it so proud/ly

           D                         G7
     Al/though we had no money.oh I/ was rich as I could be

             D                        A                D
     In my/ coat of many colours,my/ mamma made for me


      (CHANGE CORDS HERE)

      E
     So with patches on my breaches and holes in both my shoes

                                   B7
     In my coat of many colours,I/ hurried off to school

             E                                 A
     Just to/ find the others laughing and mak/in' fun of me

            E                         B7             E
     In my/ coat of many colours,my/ mamma made for/ me


     Oh,I couldn't understand it,for I felt I was rich

                                             B7
     And I told them of the love my mamma/ sewed in ever stitch

             E                               A
     And I/ told them all the story ,mamma/ told me while she
sewed

                  E
     And how my/ coat of many colours

                 B7
     is worth/ more than all of their clothes

            A                            E
     They/ didn't under stand it and I/ tried to make them see

           A                      E                    B7
     That/ one is only poor only/ if they choose to be/

            E                                 A
     Now I/ know we have no money,but I'm as/ rich as I could be

             E                        B7                E
     In my/ coat of many colours, my/ mamma made for me

       A                    E
     Yeah just for me.....

Butterfly Tales
1:03 AM

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Blouse of Many Flowers

My own version of Dolly Parton's Coat of Many Colors

Blouse of Many Colors

And I found the others smiling
And loved it like I did
In my blouse of many flowers

My soldier made for me

Original Version of Dolly Parton's Coat of Many Colors

Coat of Many Colors

Dolly Parton

Butterfly Tales
12:48 AM

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beeee day! happy silver year with the nerds + Jude

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Butterfly Tales
11:32 PM

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no excuses!

Sunday, May 25, 2008

There are so many excuses I can come with for not doing this or not doing that and I know that blogging could be one of them. But I will try not to find an excuse for NOT doing it. After all, a blog works like a two edged sword. With a blog, there is something concrete that I can look back on with my life, let's take for example, I wanted to remember how I celebrated my birthday last year and I realized that I was actually home and I only took one photo of me sitting on our couch at home. It wasn't a really a pretty picture of me because it was shot around 2 in the morning and I was dead tired at that time and no longer in the mood of looking for an angle that will compliment my face. Anyways, I love celebrating my birthday at around 2 in the morning of May 25 every year, that's because printed on my birth certificate, I was born at around that time. I sometimes go through a soul searching mode every year so I can determine what I would like to do during my new year. I've already figured what I want to do and I will do what I've always wanted to do. My mantra, with God with me, I CAN DO IT.

I had an honest conversation with my mom this morning, I was telling her how I could not help it but feel my heart break everytime the meeting with my soldier gets postponed. I've been waiting for him since 2*14*08. We have ditched every effort just so we can meet eye to eye. My mom openly told me TO STOP waiting, what she meant was that I should go on with my life and not counting him as part of it yet. I cannot keep on holding on to a promise NOT being fulfilled yet. I, as well as everyone around me is soooo thrilled to finally meet him. I always keep a positive outlook and I have learned a lot in this process of waiting that even when the set date approaches, I've learned to lower down my expectations and expect rather that I'll be disappointed again. I was actually moved into tears and with sheer envy, I can only be happy for my friends who are well on their way to being hitched. I am more than tempted to feel bad and have a pity party but I would rather see things on the brighter side. I am praying for a fruitful 2008 and a happy 25th year for me. This is the year when I stop to age, if you ask me my age next year, I'll say it out loud that I am 25, though technically, I am already 26... HERE'S to a great year!

Butterfly Tales
8:51 PM

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My Constants...

I just celebrated my silver with the constants of my life. I know for a fact that my family is constant and will back me up no matter what. I am most thankful to them and for their unconditional love. I thank God that though there are so many things in life that change, there are people who never cease to be your friend. It's regardless if you see them everyday or talk to them every time and even if somehow they seem forgotten and it's hard to catch up on each other's life, they're still your friends. Sometimes, days, weeks and even months go by without even seeing these people but you know they are there. Much like the stars at night, we seldom look up and admire it's beauty glittering amidst the thick black velvet sky but we know its there. I seldom express my love and appreciation to these constants in my life and I hope that I won't fail to let them know just how blessed I am to have them. They've been with me through the ups and downs and they have never failed to make me feel extra special, not only on special occasions but on times when I need a friend to talk to, a shoulder to cry on and just someone to laugh with. Than you guys! Soon these friends of mine will are on their way of building lasting relationships and establishing a family of their own. My heart swells with pride and joy knowing that they're happy with who they are with right now. It's really a miracle to find someone in life who will love us and accept us for who we are and who we are not. Despite my failed relationships, I am still hopeful and still blessed, when I see the radiant faces of these constants, I am reminded that God will always give us nth chances. I am praying that even if my past relationships failed, I'd still find happiness. God knows my heart and as I silently pray to Him, I am assured that He answers prayers... always... Thank you for a blessed life Lord, and thank YOU for being who YOU are, a CONSTANT.

Butterfly Tales
8:26 PM

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silver year

Friday, May 23, 2008

I will be celebrating my silver year and I would like to list down the things I have achieved but that will bore me to death. I have so much to thank for in life and thankful to celebrate 25 years... I hope that this will be a memorable year for as I know there is much in store for me out there. I have no idea what is to come but I am facing this new year in my life with expectant and grateful heart in whatever circumstance or situation that will come my way. More on this but hafta go for now...

Butterfly Tales
11:46 PM

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Patented

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

These are some of the accessories I've come up with, I'm just allowing the creative juices to flow for now... I might launch them in the market once I've gathered enough accessories to sell. This is it for now...

Butterfly Tales
3:18 AM

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when I look at the stars

Monday, May 19, 2008

Butterfly Tales
4:34 AM

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Found a way!

There's just so much to write about, I don't even know where to start. I can almost see cobwebs all over my blog when I happen to visit today and my last entry did not even in any way update of what my life has been. Let's just say I have a new love as the stars would put it and every night we watch the stars, glowing faithfully despite the dark clouds... More on this thought but I'd rather blog on the more mundane stuff first. I am also reminded to blog in friendster, I didn't realize that there are curious people who happen to read it and if I can make a difference to another person's life by what I write, I hope my blogging will do. I guess I am too occupied with just too many things. (I'll have to thank my bee for teaching me how to post my blog through e-mail) Technology is amazing!!!

Anyways, moving on with my point, I am PROUD of my little accomplishments, I wouldn't consider them GRAND or worth noticing but I am mighty PROUD of what I have accomplished lately. Well, I am talking about several accessories with my bare hands. Somehow, the creative side of my soldier has aroused that creative side of me, I will be posting pics of my creation soon and in high hopes that it might attract potential buyers one of these days. My goal is not so much to sell the pieces I've made but more on to get those creative juices flowing. I am wearing one today and in as much as I want to sell this piece, I'd like to keep it. If I am able to put up my own store today, I'd name it PATENTED. On one of my soldier's emails he mentioned the word, PATENTED while he was referring to cooking up a surprise for sh0es and I, he didn't want anyone to copy what he was planning on. I realized then that it's a great name for a brand, it's like the term BRANDED but has an all too different meaning all to itself. Anyways, going back to patented, I have learned to put a patent on the small pieces I've made and remade. I have gained access to the affordable accessories here and what I do to put a patent on them is to remake those accessories to make it stand out or different from all the rest. There are so many nice and very affordable accessories out in the market but what makes my creation better is the fact that you won't have anyone just like it. It'll be a ONE of a kind design. I'd like to graduate from accessories to prolly clothing someday but I can always take these things one at a time. I can't even wait to show off those pieces I made. I have made several bags with the guitar design and although I am not sure if I can still make another one, I'm just glad I was able to create a simple guitar print come alive with beads and crystals. I made a shirt with pictures of me and my ex so my ex will be reminded that though our past relationship has become water down the drain, there are memories worth remembering. But even that has to be set aside and placed in the closet, I ask myself, what for anyway... We've chosen different paths now and I've NO REGRETS! Not having my love here allows me all the time in the world to rediscover myself, who I am and what I love to do.

One of my friends bumped into my ex-ex(my ex before my ex, go figure) my friend was just glad to announce the level I have reached at work but instead of being happy for me, he commented, "yeah! I have a bigger salary than her..." AS IF! I mean, the nerve of him utter such remarks! It's not the MOOLAH BOZO! It's the level of difficulty and respect I get for being where I am today and I am more than happy to have maintained my position for more than a year now and what about you, if I may ask, you've been hopping from one job to another and not so much accomplishing anything. I'll bet my resume looks better than yours! I was just pissed off trying to belittle me again... But I've got nothing to prove to him anymore since he's been history ages ago.

To happier thoughts, it's my silver year, I'll be turning 25 and I honestly don't know what's in store for me, I don't even want to wake up on the 25th 'cause since I can remember, the 25th is tingbits so I don't have enough funds to celebrate. It's a good thing it'll be my restday. I have prepared party hats but that's just it. hehehehehe I'll have to leave it all to the mighty hands of God to work out a miracle for me. I'll have to park for now, I have been staring at the PC, my eyes are now watery...

lotta love!

Butterfly Tales
3:49 AM

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NO OUTLOOK

There have been problems with outlook in the office. Too bad!

Butterfly Tales
3:06 AM

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